Maybe is something that has been in my heart for long time, I didn't feel happy for the past one week. I was so glad that my sweetheart can come to me after 3 months, yet there are somethings that are long due to be solved.
I am like the new born person, do not know much of the relationship among human, and that makes me suffer. One of the earliest english sentence that I have ever learnt was "Behave yourself".
To behave like a lady, to behave like a good kid etc. Everything is a white or black, nothing in between. Is only when I got into the community, in the school, in the society, that I know not everyone is thinking the same.
It has not been easy at all time living with others. There are good things that happen everyday, yet there are more to be taken care of, especially, human relationship.
I had problem dealing with one of the girl that stayed with me, noticing that selfishness maybe the nature of human. Yet, I see the generousity of others, towards her immaturity. Sky is blue, sea breeze come to me everyday, yet I can't feel it with my heart. My heart is filled with grumbles and disappointment.
Is about one week before everything ends here and I am going start my journey again soon. Maybe he is right, no matter where I am, only myself can help myself, to be happy. :) I can't wait to see the day coming.
